After Death Communication No.1
My Happiness Was Short Lived
A dream, amongst many that I have had come true, this one really upset me after all the things started to come to me later.
I had dated Nolan when I was 14. He was my first love. There was just something about him and his brilliant green eyes. We only dated for the summer, but I would always be in love with him. When I was 20 yrs. Old, I had a dream about him. It was really weird. In the dream we were arguing, which was really odd, and when I woke up I went to my Mom and told her, "Give it two weeks, and I'll see him."
About a week and a half later I was at a friends house and we ordered pizza and guess who delivered it. Low and behold, Nolan, I jumped on him screaming when I opened the door and realized it was him. He didn't know it was me at first, and I was just screaming over and over, "I had a dream about you!" It doesn't end there though. My happiness was short lived.
About a month later I decided to end a 4 1/2 year relationship with another guy, and the day I did, I came across Nolan's number that he had given me that day I saw him in August of '95. Now it was Oct. 1, 1995, and I called up Nolan, and we immediately got together that night and started seeing each other every day till Oct. 20, when he was killed. I hadn't seen him or talked to him for about a day before that though, and the night he was killed I was out with two other friends, at a coffee house.
It was about 11:15 PM and we were sitting talking when all of a sudden I got the worst feeling, and I can still imagine that feeling, that something was wrong. I guess I totally zoned out, when one of my friends asked what was wrong, and I said, "Something is wrong take me home, something is wrong, I need to go home," and I just kept looking at my watch till I got home.
The next day I called Nolan's work, but he didn't answer, so I just hung up. Later that day his roommate called me. He said, "Hi this is Nolan's roommate," and I said "Hi". He said, " I wanted to call you and tell you before you saw it on the news, but I have some bad news about Nolan." I got sick to my stomach, and immediately said, "Nolan's not dead is he?" and he stunningly said, "Yes!". I thought it was a joke, and kept saying over and over, "that's not funny" and expecting Nolan listening on the other end and that they were playing a cruel joke. But he didn't budge. And then all of a sudden it hit me and I lost it. Unfortunately, Nolan had been stabbed that night, and died instantly.
The next day it just all started to come to me about the dream. I feel it was meant to be that I see him for the last time. I loved him so much and still do. The only thing I don't understand to this day, is why in the dream we were arguing? Usually when I have a dream that comes true, it doesn't make sense at the time or the dream has nothing to do with what will happen, but I can decipher the dream and tell you WHAT is going to happen. This one threw me for a loop. I wish I could have foretold the outcome of that one and saved him. But this one will bother me forever, other than I knew I was going to see him, I don't know why we were upset with each other.
September 15, 2003